The letter I can’t send

I’m writing this because I feel like I have so much to say, and I don’t know if there will ever be the right chance to say it. Part of me never wants to send this to you because I feel selfish in doing so. I don’t want to hurt you, even though some days I want you to hurt.…

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Exposure Therapy

Yesterday I made the foolish mistake of believing that I was stronger than I am. There was a night of worship being hosted at my old church. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy to go with the amount of history combined with the people who would be there. After being invited and “encouraged” to attend multiple times by…

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I don’t feel like self love is something I’ve ever really grasped, and I’m not entirely sure how to go about getting it down. Part of it stems from a fear of being perceived as narcissistic, because I can’t stand people who are full of themselves. I try and stop myself from being overly talkative. I do a bad job…

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Reclamation and fear

This weekend was about reclamation. I took back the road to Louisiana, with gas money purchased by selling my wedding ring ($60 – diamonds are worthless in case anyone was wondering). I listened to podcasts and music without anyone complaining about my taste. I let my mind wander and took in the national forests that he refused to drive through,…

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